I used to play The Sims games exclusively. They are completely different from other games. So I am just getting use to other types of games. I've warned the guys I've played with about my experience and they say it's okay, but I feel so... I don't know. Inadequate? Then the way they act during game play makes me feel worse. I haven't dedicated my life to playing games. It is just something fun to do sometimes and to take my mind off problems. I like to play for fun. They make me feel like I let them down or something, like they expected me to play like a man. Females just aren't competitive like males. Maybe I'm just being sensitive.
I have a few people on my Friends' list. They are all guys. I haven't had any females send a friend request. But then I haven't sent any friend requests either. All the guy "friends" sent me a request. Nathan says they just want to be friends with me because I have a feminine name. Isn't that sad? Then of course, every single guy starts asking about age. Females are more touchy about the age question than males are. It bothers me. I'm not old, but I feel like they would not talk to me if I told them my age. So I basically ignore their question. I want to have "friends" to play games with and chat to. Nathan doesn't totally like it. He says he knows how men think. Everything has been strictly platonic. I'm not stupid. Nor do I want anything else. I love Nathan. He gets to talk to other people online, so why can't I? Sometimes I want to socialize too. More males play video games than females, so of course I'll come across more males.
Some of the guys have wanted to use the voice chat in the game. I always turn it off. I hate talking, but I love messaging. Weird? For me writing it is so much easier. I like socializing if I don't have to actually talk. Maybe I am weird. Nathan hates messaging. I'm always sending him little love messages. He rarely messages me back. He told me, "Why should I send a message when I can just tell you?" But I think it is fun. Why can't he just play along? He used to write me love letters. What's the difference? Nathan has made remarks about my lack of wanting to talk to people on the phone too. I hate talking on the phone. Quite unfeminine, I know, but I do love emailing and messaging. Thank god for the new age in that respect.
Well...just a rambling post really.
Until next time.

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