Another problem- my blood pressure was elevated again. The doctor said it is more than likely because I was in pain and highly anxious. He said that I really need to reduce stress in my life. Why ever should I be highly anxious and stressed out? But this is twice now in a month that it's been elevated. Of course that adds even more anxiety. It is probably elevated often because I am under so much stress from being seriously ill to VDOT harassing us with threats of homelessness to many other problems. It is more than one person can handle. The doctor can't give me any anti-anxiety medication because I am still breastfeeding. So I have been researching ways to lower stress and blood pressure without medication. I am going to try working on some of these things, but I don't think it will help. What I need is to be left the fuck alone while I deal with the illnesses I have. But that is unrealistic thinking in this world. God forbid you are left alone to live your short life.
This is what I found on different sites for lowering your blood pressure:
1. get to and maintain a healthy weight
2. reduce your levels of stress (ha ha)
3. breathe deeply to lower hormones levels released by stress
4. get some exercise for at least 30 minutes every day (does housework count?)
5. eat a healthy, low-sodium diet (I already do)
6. eat potassium-rich veggies and fruit (I already do)
7. get enough fiber (I try)
8. get enough sleep (that is not an option at this time with an infant and toddlers)
9. drink tea with hibiscus in it, like herbal teas (I do like herbal teas and could drink more)
10. lower your alcohol intake (I don't drink at all)
11. eat dark chocolate
12. lower your caffeine intake (I do drink some caffeine every day- I don't get enough sleep)
The only thing damn near impossible to do on this list is reducing your stress levels. If you have a normal, run-of-the-mill life that might be doable, but not when you have my life. I am being bombarded from all sides with no break until I have gotten to the point where I am going to just lose it. Yes, I am on the brink. No, I am not going to kill myself or any such foolishness. I don't want to die. But my body might give up on it's own no matter what my brain thinks. Too much stress leads to high blood pressure. High blood pressure leads to strokes and heart attacks. And there are mental breakdowns. I don't want any of these things. Of course with these things going on, my body can not fight the illnesses also going on inside me.
VDOT has certainly helped with the stress levels. We got another certified letter from them. They said that since we did not contact them over the last letter, we only have until August 15th to do so. If not, then we are to vacate the premises. Nathan did try to call them at the number they gave us many, many, many times. All he got was a busy signal, every single time. We have phone records to prove it. I told Nathan that we are sending a certified letter back to them. I just love how VDOT lies to everyone (like the State police) saying that they are not going to "displace" us and then send us more threatening letters stating that they will. This is a major source of stress in my life. Your home is supposed to be your sanctuary from outside stressors. But NOT here.
After eight years of not having contact with my daughter, Mattie, she finally became old enough to disobey her father and contact us. We have talked with her a lot in the past couple of weeks. She is learning French, because I took French in school! She likes to read classics just like me. She wears my jewelry and hung up paintings I had done. Jeb refused to give me my belongings but at least Mattie has them. While it was great talking to her, it was also heart-breaking. Her life has not been an easy one. Her father is a drunk and abusive. I knew Jeb would be like that with her- he is with all females under his thumb. I tried to tell the court but no one would listen to me, my attorney, the doctors, the psychiatrist, the other police, or the hospital. Mattie, unknowingly, confirmed what I had always thought. His parents "knew" people in the courts and talked them into putting the case on Jeb's side. I never had a chance because we do NOT have a fair and just justice system. I still have to finish writing about that. What Mattie told me about the way he has treated her makes me extremely angry at Jeb, his parents, and the court. What they have done to her is unforgivable. UNFORGIVABLE!!!!
So this is what I have been dealing with recently. How about you? It would be nice to hear about other people's lives. Hopefully you are doing much better than me. I hope some people have good lives.
Until next time.
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